This post is, well, long overdue. 4 weeks ago, 12/3/11, God gave us the greatest gift, a daughter - Alise Cari Andrade. She weighed 7 lbs and was 19 inches long.
Little did I know, how exciting yet overwhelming it would be. I have had many thoughts and ideas for my next post. But had not gotten around to it. Now it's 5ish am - and I can't sleep. They say you should sleep when the baby sleeps, but that's sort of hard. And really can't remember much about all those thoughts I've had about this post. So if I ramble, bear with me. I figured if I actually start typing something will come.
We are adjusting to this new chapter in our life. Sam does great, and is very hands on with Alise. He is a great dad. I couldn't ask for more. Well, I could ask for more sleep, but you know how that goes.
One thing that I have gotten away from is reading my Bible daily. Pre-Alise I was pretty good at reading a few chapters a day. It was part of my routine, something I looked forward to. Now, I try to read a bit, but it doesn't happen every day. Lately, if I do read, it's the book of Psalms and it's a distracted kind of read. I feel a little like I've been neglecting God's Word. And this is one thing that I do not want to do. I know I need to adjust my daily schedule to find time...I am a believer of no excuses when it comes to God. I shouldn't have to "find time". So, I just have to do it.
Pre-Alise I always thought...God will still be my number one priority. And He still is...but I have been slacking. I do talk to Him alot; I must admit it's mostly "thank you" and "please help me". For me, it is important to keep growing in Him. To be able to live what I believe. In motherhood, sometimes, I feel like I don't live what I believe. Granted I am a new mom, but I tend to worry and stress over Alise more than I would like to. And it frustrates me...why don't I rest in God's faithfulness, His goodness, His promises? Why am I not living what I believe? I talk to others about trusting God in their situations. Why am I not doing the same in mine? Why am I not running to God's Word, where we find His voice, wisdom, and love?
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Blessed...
God has blessed our family in so many ways; it's incredible. He has surrounded us with His blessings. The blessings come in all sorts of ways. One that I'd like to touch on is that of our friends. We have seen God working in our friends to show his love to us. It's just amazing....
-Sam's co-workers at work threw him a surprise baby shower last week. We received lots of great gifts. To date, this is the fourth baby shower that we have had thrown by friends and co-workers. How cool is that? For God to supply us with what we will need; for Him to place in the heart of others - his generous ways.
-Earlier this week our missionary friends, Mauri and Kerry, came to visit for a few days. They took time from their schedule to have dinner with us, to share their story and stories about being missionaries since they know that Sam and I would like to become missionaries one day. God - using them, perhaps, to call us, to encourage us.
-My friends who have helped us figure out decorating the baby room. PJ, who took time to show me how to do an art project for Alise's room, LeTricia who stopped by and helped us decide which colors to paint the walls, Cindy who spent the day with me organizing and making curtains for Alise's room. Each of them, selflessly giving their time - God's love working through them.
"For the Lord is good. His unfailing love continues forever, and his faithfulness continues to each generation." Psalm 100:5
-Sam's co-workers at work threw him a surprise baby shower last week. We received lots of great gifts. To date, this is the fourth baby shower that we have had thrown by friends and co-workers. How cool is that? For God to supply us with what we will need; for Him to place in the heart of others - his generous ways.
-Earlier this week our missionary friends, Mauri and Kerry, came to visit for a few days. They took time from their schedule to have dinner with us, to share their story and stories about being missionaries since they know that Sam and I would like to become missionaries one day. God - using them, perhaps, to call us, to encourage us.
-My friends who have helped us figure out decorating the baby room. PJ, who took time to show me how to do an art project for Alise's room, LeTricia who stopped by and helped us decide which colors to paint the walls, Cindy who spent the day with me organizing and making curtains for Alise's room. Each of them, selflessly giving their time - God's love working through them.
"For the Lord is good. His unfailing love continues forever, and his faithfulness continues to each generation." Psalm 100:5
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
A Little Spring in November...
On Friday, November 4th, 2011 - my second nephew Phoenix was born. After anxiously awaiting his arrival, the day finally came :) Mom and baby are doing well. I'd like to say that I didn't worry about the day he would be born. But I did, and during my anxiousness, I heard a soft spoken voice inside say, "I got this."
Why do we doubt when we know that God has a plan? Regardless of the "why", God loves us and will come through for us. We are, after all, his children. His coming through may not always be on our terms. But who says our terms are the best way anyway?
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. Isaiah 55:8
Even when we couldn't see it, God knew that spring would be coming...
Why do we doubt when we know that God has a plan? Regardless of the "why", God loves us and will come through for us. We are, after all, his children. His coming through may not always be on our terms. But who says our terms are the best way anyway?
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. Isaiah 55:8
Even when we couldn't see it, God knew that spring would be coming...
Friday, October 21, 2011
God's Wonder...
Lately, I've been a bit overwhelmed. In a good way. I've found myself pleasantly surprised at how much I've been enjoying being pregnant. God has truly blessed me with a great pregnancy so far :) I cannot complain about anything. Never would I have expected to enjoy it this much. This little girl inside me amazes me. And with that...
I find myself more and more in awe of God's wonder...how He creates life, how He loves us enough to give us the gift of being able to have children, how He plans everything in His perfect timing.
"Search for the Lord and for his strength; continually seek Him. Remember the wonders He has performed, His miracles..." Psalm 105:4-5
I find myself more and more in awe of God's wonder...how He creates life, how He loves us enough to give us the gift of being able to have children, how He plans everything in His perfect timing.
"Search for the Lord and for his strength; continually seek Him. Remember the wonders He has performed, His miracles..." Psalm 105:4-5
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Revelation...
Yesterday was a tough day. I was a little moody, impatient, and frustrated with people. I could blame it on pregnancy/hormones, but I don't think that is it at all. It's just me...and my human-ness. It's like if somebody doesn't say or do what "I" think they should do, something is wrong with them. Halfway through the day (and this doesn't happen often)...revelation.
I felt like God was telling me, "Who do you think you are, why do you take yourself so seriously"? He went on to tell me, "what about all you read and learn...what happened to "love your neighbors", what happened to putting into action My principles?" He pretty much put me in my place. It was a revelation, a big one.
During this battle in my mind, the following verses popped into my head:
"...Don't think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of yourselves, measuring yourselves by the faith God has given us." Romans 12:3
"Don't just pretend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold tightly to what is good. Love each other with genuine affection..." Romans 12:9-10
"Don't be too proud to enjoy the company of ordinary people. And don't think you know it all!" Romans 12:16
"If you think you are too important to help someone, you are only fooling yourself. You are not that important." Galatians 6:3
Thank you God for this revelation.
I felt like God was telling me, "Who do you think you are, why do you take yourself so seriously"? He went on to tell me, "what about all you read and learn...what happened to "love your neighbors", what happened to putting into action My principles?" He pretty much put me in my place. It was a revelation, a big one.
During this battle in my mind, the following verses popped into my head:
"...Don't think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of yourselves, measuring yourselves by the faith God has given us." Romans 12:3
"Don't just pretend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold tightly to what is good. Love each other with genuine affection..." Romans 12:9-10
"Don't be too proud to enjoy the company of ordinary people. And don't think you know it all!" Romans 12:16
"If you think you are too important to help someone, you are only fooling yourself. You are not that important." Galatians 6:3
Thank you God for this revelation.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Luke 9:23
Then he said to the crowd, "If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me."
The last book I read pretty much focused on this verse. "Not a Fan" by Kyle Idleman has quickly become one of my favorites. The book talks about assessing whether you are a fan of Jesus or a follower of Jesus. Many of us say we are followers, but are we truly followers, or just "fans"? Idleman defines a fan as an "enthusiastic admirer".
Following Jesus is not a one-time commitment saying that you believe in Jesus. It's a daily commitment, or should be, and our daily lives should be reflective of this.
Do I want to be a follower of Jesus?
Will I turn from my selfish ways?
Other translations of the verse say deny yourself; will I deny myself?
Will I take up my cross "daily"?
Will I follow Him?
Or do I just say I do? Luke 9:23 is so convicting to me. Alot of times when interpreting the Bible, I've heard that Jesus speaks in exaggeration, sometimes not to be taken literally. For this verse, I think He meant exactly what he said. I think He means if I want to follow Him, this life can't be about me, but about Him. Anything that could get in the way of me following Him - I must give that up - even if it is an American norm or part of my need for being "comfortable". I don't think there is any comprising this. Idleman points out that God wants all of us, wants to be our only priority not just our first priority. That may sound a bit extreme, but I think if God is our only priority all other priorities fall into place.
Take up your cross daily...hmm. Jesus really wants me to carry a cross every day? Ok, so this is not too literal. I think He is saying that no matter what your circumstance may be, don't lose focus of your goal - following Jesus. Following Jesus is no easy task, that's not what He promises.
Follow Him. How? By turning from my selfish ways and taking up my cross daily. By making Jesus first place - no matter what. By loving God and by loving my neighbor as myself. By getting out of my own little world. By following Jesus, wherever and whenever He leads me.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Make Me Over
I've been silent instead of speaking up
Gave my advice instead of giving love
I have been unfair, faithless and unkind
I have shut my eyes just so I would stay blind
It's not what I meant to do Cause I wanna honor you
Make me over, make me new, make me a mirror, a reflection of you
Take me all apart, take me to your heart and pull me closer
Oh, Jesus, make me over
Take away the pride that whispers in the dark
Take the stone out of the middle of my heart
Hidden underneath my insecurities is the servant that you've destined me to be
But day after precious day I get in my own way
Make me over, make me new, make me a mirror, a reflection of you
Take me all apart, take me to your heart and pull me closer
Sweet savior, make me over I am only made of your imagining
I'm dust and clay on the wind
Wash me in the river of your sacrifice
Until I'm changed, purified
-Make Me Over, Natalie Grant
Gave my advice instead of giving love
I have been unfair, faithless and unkind
I have shut my eyes just so I would stay blind
It's not what I meant to do Cause I wanna honor you
Make me over, make me new, make me a mirror, a reflection of you
Take me all apart, take me to your heart and pull me closer
Oh, Jesus, make me over
Take away the pride that whispers in the dark
Take the stone out of the middle of my heart
Hidden underneath my insecurities is the servant that you've destined me to be
But day after precious day I get in my own way
Make me over, make me new, make me a mirror, a reflection of you
Take me all apart, take me to your heart and pull me closer
Sweet savior, make me over I am only made of your imagining
I'm dust and clay on the wind
Wash me in the river of your sacrifice
Until I'm changed, purified
-Make Me Over, Natalie Grant
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
I remember...
I remember when my first nephew, Zavier was born - September 15, 2009. It was an exciting moment in our family's life. We had all been anxiously awaiting his arrival.
I remember wanting him to be older already so he could laugh and play with us.
I remember January 8, 2010 came all to quickly.
I remember the phone call on that cold Friday afternoon.
I remember getting to the hospital to find out that Zavier did not make it.
I remember feeling a little numb; alot of disbelief.
I remember the next few days being a whirlwind....doing things I never thought our family would have to do.
I remember feeling helpless and actually sometimes I still do.
I remember trying to cling to God with all I had.
I remember going through moments being angry at God, but then feeling his peace calming my anger.
I remember God...never letting go and I know He never will.
I remember wanting him to be older already so he could laugh and play with us.
I remember January 8, 2010 came all to quickly.
I remember the phone call on that cold Friday afternoon.
I remember getting to the hospital to find out that Zavier did not make it.
I remember feeling a little numb; alot of disbelief.
I remember the next few days being a whirlwind....doing things I never thought our family would have to do.
I remember feeling helpless and actually sometimes I still do.
I remember trying to cling to God with all I had.
I remember going through moments being angry at God, but then feeling his peace calming my anger.
I remember God...never letting go and I know He never will.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Do Not Love This World
"Do not love this world nor the things it offers you, for when you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you. For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from this world. And this world is fading away, along with everything that people crave. But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever."
1 John 2: 15:17
1 John 2: 15:17
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
My church - Community of Faith
I have a journal that I just found. I have one entry...that's all. It doesn't have an exact date but I know it's from early 2009. It's about how my church has impacted my life. Actually, it was a letter to the church. Here it goes...
My Story
During the last few months, I've slowly opened the door to finally establish a relationship with God. COF has helped me, tremendously, to decide that I do choose God, that He is boss of my life. Going to my first COF service back in November was a "kairos" moment for me. After going through my "quarter-life" crises, I knew that I needed a change, a positive change. It was time for me to make God my first priority. And not second to drinking and partying with my friends. COF has helped me realized that I want to serve God. Everyone I have met has been so sincere, every service is so sincere and genuine.
Being a Houston non-native for a less than a year, I have sent my friends back home the link to COF so they can see and hear the services too. I've found myself wanting and planning to do things I had never wanted before - such as volunteering at church. And hopefully getting to participate in a mission trip.
This is only the beginning of my journey to live a life that Christ would be proud of. I emailed one of my friends back home and told them of my new found devotion to God, going to church, participating in church groups...I told her that I had no desire to drink as I once looked forward to (far too often)...her response was "who is this Lanie, you are not the same person I know". She is right - I am not the same person that lived for all the wrong things. Thanks COF for helping me jumpstart a defining 2009 year!!
More than 2 years later - my church is still the greatest! The way God works through the church body and staff is pretty incredible. Here is a link to COF's website where messages can played back... http://www.communityoffaith.tv.
My Story
During the last few months, I've slowly opened the door to finally establish a relationship with God. COF has helped me, tremendously, to decide that I do choose God, that He is boss of my life. Going to my first COF service back in November was a "kairos" moment for me. After going through my "quarter-life" crises, I knew that I needed a change, a positive change. It was time for me to make God my first priority. And not second to drinking and partying with my friends. COF has helped me realized that I want to serve God. Everyone I have met has been so sincere, every service is so sincere and genuine.
Being a Houston non-native for a less than a year, I have sent my friends back home the link to COF so they can see and hear the services too. I've found myself wanting and planning to do things I had never wanted before - such as volunteering at church. And hopefully getting to participate in a mission trip.
This is only the beginning of my journey to live a life that Christ would be proud of. I emailed one of my friends back home and told them of my new found devotion to God, going to church, participating in church groups...I told her that I had no desire to drink as I once looked forward to (far too often)...her response was "who is this Lanie, you are not the same person I know". She is right - I am not the same person that lived for all the wrong things. Thanks COF for helping me jumpstart a defining 2009 year!!
More than 2 years later - my church is still the greatest! The way God works through the church body and staff is pretty incredible. Here is a link to COF's website where messages can played back... http://www.communityoffaith.tv.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
I want more...
I want more...
More of God. More of Jesus. More of the Holy Spirit.
I want less...
Less of myself. Less of this world. Less of meaningless distractions.
More of God. More of Jesus. More of the Holy Spirit.
I want less...
Less of myself. Less of this world. Less of meaningless distractions.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Surrender...
Take my life, take it all, I surrender heart and soul
From now on I live for You
Take my life, take it all, I surrender heart and soul
From now on I live for You, only You
From now on I live for You
Take my life, take it all, I surrender heart and soul
From now on I live for You, only You
-Take My Life, ALM UK
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Overwhelmed...
We have been back from Costa Rica for almost a week now and I am still overwhelmed by how much, both Sam and I loved it. It was our second mission trip and it will not be our last.
I am in awe of the people we got to spend time with. It's amazing to see a different world besides our "American" world. When you walk down the streets of La Carpio, you see poverty, run down homes, unpaved streets...nothing like we are used to. Our church, Community of Faith, strives to establish relationships rather than go in and try to fix everything. I like that.
In our American culture, we strive for bigger, better things...materialism. There could be more happy people in La Carpio than some of us here who are consumed by debt because we have to pacify our need to have material items. Sure we may have it "all", a nice car, nice home, nice wardrobe...but who are we to say that we live better than people in La Carpio. They may be more spiritually rich...which is what ultimately matters.
Here are a few pictures of La Carpio:
Dawin, the little boy in this picture, taught us 1st Peter 2:17 in Spanish. Respect everyone, and love your Christian brothers and sisters. Fear God, and respect the king.
This is a picture of my new friend, Ruth. She lives in La Carpio and lives with 2 of her kids there. She has 3 other kids who live in Nicaragua. After spending a little time with her, she came back to the community center where we were at, and gave me two handmade headbands for Baby Alise. What a generous heart!
A couple of pictures of homes in La Carpio.
2 Corinthians 6:10
"Our hearts ache, but we always have joy. We are poor, but we give spiritual riches to others. We own nothing, and yet we have everything."
I am in awe of the people we got to spend time with. It's amazing to see a different world besides our "American" world. When you walk down the streets of La Carpio, you see poverty, run down homes, unpaved streets...nothing like we are used to. Our church, Community of Faith, strives to establish relationships rather than go in and try to fix everything. I like that.
In our American culture, we strive for bigger, better things...materialism. There could be more happy people in La Carpio than some of us here who are consumed by debt because we have to pacify our need to have material items. Sure we may have it "all", a nice car, nice home, nice wardrobe...but who are we to say that we live better than people in La Carpio. They may be more spiritually rich...which is what ultimately matters.
Here are a few pictures of La Carpio:
Dawin, the little boy in this picture, taught us 1st Peter 2:17 in Spanish. Respect everyone, and love your Christian brothers and sisters. Fear God, and respect the king.
This is a picture of my new friend, Ruth. She lives in La Carpio and lives with 2 of her kids there. She has 3 other kids who live in Nicaragua. After spending a little time with her, she came back to the community center where we were at, and gave me two handmade headbands for Baby Alise. What a generous heart!
A couple of pictures of homes in La Carpio.
2 Corinthians 6:10
"Our hearts ache, but we always have joy. We are poor, but we give spiritual riches to others. We own nothing, and yet we have everything."
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Thankfulness
Today, I am thankful. Thankful for many things but a couple of specific things. I am thankful that I get to now feel my baby move! I love every movement :) Thank you God.
I am thankful for Sam. Thankful that he is just as passionate about God as I am. I love to hear him sing to God. Sam is not normally a singer, but at church he sings, and I love that.
"Let all that I am praise the Lord; with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name. Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me." Psalm 103:1-2
I am thankful for Sam. Thankful that he is just as passionate about God as I am. I love to hear him sing to God. Sam is not normally a singer, but at church he sings, and I love that.
"Let all that I am praise the Lord; with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name. Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me." Psalm 103:1-2
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Happiness...
One of God's greatest gift to us is choice. And we have the choice to choose happiness or not...not sure if in my mind I am simplfying this, but I have the choice to be happy or to be unhappy. You have the same freedom and can choose to be happy or to be unhappy.
Now, I do realize that there are circumstances in our lives that may not seem ideal or positive. But it is our choice to look past our circumstances and find our happiness. For me, my happiness is in God. No matter what kind of day I am having, what kind of relational issue I am having, God will always be God. No changing there...and He is my happiness. Knowing this, I have found great peace within myself, great peace knowing God and wanting to know Him more. This doesn't mean that I don't have problems or bad days, or even bad things happen...because I do and bad things do happen. It's about choosing how to deal with such things; how to look beyond, and above to the One who knows about yesterday, today, and tomorrow - God. It's about knowing that this life we live is not the end all. God is the end all; heaven is our home and what I look forward to. Living this life all for Him - that is my happiness.
Often times, I am disappointed, but those are moments that soon pass.
Look beyond your circumstance, look beyond your problem to find true happiness, choose to do it because no one else can do it for you. Choose to let God in, choose to want to know Him.
I pray that I will never lose focus of my happiness and pray for those who are looking for it.
Now, I do realize that there are circumstances in our lives that may not seem ideal or positive. But it is our choice to look past our circumstances and find our happiness. For me, my happiness is in God. No matter what kind of day I am having, what kind of relational issue I am having, God will always be God. No changing there...and He is my happiness. Knowing this, I have found great peace within myself, great peace knowing God and wanting to know Him more. This doesn't mean that I don't have problems or bad days, or even bad things happen...because I do and bad things do happen. It's about choosing how to deal with such things; how to look beyond, and above to the One who knows about yesterday, today, and tomorrow - God. It's about knowing that this life we live is not the end all. God is the end all; heaven is our home and what I look forward to. Living this life all for Him - that is my happiness.
Often times, I am disappointed, but those are moments that soon pass.
Look beyond your circumstance, look beyond your problem to find true happiness, choose to do it because no one else can do it for you. Choose to let God in, choose to want to know Him.
I pray that I will never lose focus of my happiness and pray for those who are looking for it.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Strength and Perseverance...
Tomorrow my sister, Erica will be graduating from college. I am so in awe of her accomplishment. She went back to school about two years ago, when she was pregnant with my nephew, Zavier. About 4 months later, Zavier passed away. My sister could have easily given up. Instead she continued going to school while working full-time and being a mother and wife.
It's just incredible when I think about how she was able to do all of this. Now, she will be graduating from college. And, I think, the most amazing part is that she is now expecting her third child, her second son. There is nothing my sister can't do and I thank God for her and the inspiration she is to so many around her.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.They will soar high on wings like eagles.They will run and not grow weary.They will walk and not faint.
Isaiah 40:31
It's just incredible when I think about how she was able to do all of this. Now, she will be graduating from college. And, I think, the most amazing part is that she is now expecting her third child, her second son. There is nothing my sister can't do and I thank God for her and the inspiration she is to so many around her.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.They will soar high on wings like eagles.They will run and not grow weary.They will walk and not faint.
Isaiah 40:31
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Courage...
One question that pops into my head frequently is "how do I live all out for God"? I feel like sometimes I'm not doing enough. Just recently, I read "Same Kind of Different as Me" and it's a great book (true story) about how God works in people's lives. A married couple volunteers at a homeless shelter and befriends a homeless person, who is now like family. This got me thinking...
I work downtown, and every morning I see about at least one homeless person that I just pass on by. Honestly, sometimes I am scared to make eye contact. But after I read the book, I thought to myself, why don't I just make a sandwich every morning and give it to a homeless person that I see on my way to work.
So...I bought some bread and PB&J...had the stuff ready to make a sandwich. I haven't made one yet. As I walked to work one morning, I noticed the homeless person that I've seen for awhile now, asleep on the sidewalk. What if starts playing in my head...what if I place the sandwich next to him and he gets mad because I woke him up. What if he doesn't want the sandwich...what if he becomes violent towards me?
Just this last weekend, I read another book, and one of the characters always carried a sandwich with her to give to a hungry person. Another sign? Maybe...
Then, earlier this week, I was walking to the bus stop on the way out of work, and I notice a homeless person up ahead. Now, normally, I don't usually give people cash, mostly because I rarely carry cash, but sometimes I think that this could just be my excuse. In my bag I had four dollars, and thought to myself I could give this guy the few dollars. I passed by him (just walking by, not giving him anything), and there he sat, saying obscene things to me. I was stuck at the intersection waiting for the crosswalk light to give me a go, and I could still hear him calling for my attention. I didn't know if I should walk to the other side, or just wait until I could cross in the direction I needed to go. I waited it out, thankfully, it wasn't too long.
Walking to the bus stop, I could hear his words replaying in my head. I just took one step back, maybe I shouldn't help the homeless?
Or is that just Satan trying to pull me away? Could be, I don't really know.
Where is the courage I should have? Why am I so scared to step out my comfort zone?
Psalm 27:14
Wait patiently for the Lord.
Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.
I work downtown, and every morning I see about at least one homeless person that I just pass on by. Honestly, sometimes I am scared to make eye contact. But after I read the book, I thought to myself, why don't I just make a sandwich every morning and give it to a homeless person that I see on my way to work.
So...I bought some bread and PB&J...had the stuff ready to make a sandwich. I haven't made one yet. As I walked to work one morning, I noticed the homeless person that I've seen for awhile now, asleep on the sidewalk. What if starts playing in my head...what if I place the sandwich next to him and he gets mad because I woke him up. What if he doesn't want the sandwich...what if he becomes violent towards me?
Just this last weekend, I read another book, and one of the characters always carried a sandwich with her to give to a hungry person. Another sign? Maybe...
Then, earlier this week, I was walking to the bus stop on the way out of work, and I notice a homeless person up ahead. Now, normally, I don't usually give people cash, mostly because I rarely carry cash, but sometimes I think that this could just be my excuse. In my bag I had four dollars, and thought to myself I could give this guy the few dollars. I passed by him (just walking by, not giving him anything), and there he sat, saying obscene things to me. I was stuck at the intersection waiting for the crosswalk light to give me a go, and I could still hear him calling for my attention. I didn't know if I should walk to the other side, or just wait until I could cross in the direction I needed to go. I waited it out, thankfully, it wasn't too long.
Walking to the bus stop, I could hear his words replaying in my head. I just took one step back, maybe I shouldn't help the homeless?
Or is that just Satan trying to pull me away? Could be, I don't really know.
Where is the courage I should have? Why am I so scared to step out my comfort zone?
Psalm 27:14
Wait patiently for the Lord.
Be brave and courageous.
Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Distinguishing...
How do we distinguish between God's plans for us, our plans, and even the evil that we sometimes mistake as God's plan for us?
Alot of times we say well it was God's plan, or God's will. What about the bad, sad, horrible things that happen in this world? Is it really God speaking to us or trying to get our attention? I think that sometimes we think that the bad around us must be God's plan since maybe he didn't stop it, or prevent it. He didn't intervene...why?
What is it exactly that God is trying to get across when He makes bad things happen to us? There is something wrong with that question - God doesn't make bad things happen to us. We may be mistaking evil for God's will. Or even our own free will and choices that we ourselves make...
I asked my friend if God disciplines us by causing terrible things to happen to us, like the way shepherds would break a sheep's leg in order to protect them and get them to listen to the Shepherd. This was her response, "No God doesn't do that. We live in a fallen world and those things happen. I think the Shepherd did that to put the sheep in time out, so to speak, so it can be still and heal. What's interesting is when a bone is broken it grows back even stronger."
Distinguishing correctly - not a simple thing to do. It's so easy to blame God for all that goes bad. But we do live a fallen world, where evil and our own free will reign.
Psalm 23:1-3
The Lord is my shepherd;
I have all that I need.
He lets me rest in green meadows;
he leads me beside peaceful streams.
He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
bringing honor to his name.
Alot of times we say well it was God's plan, or God's will. What about the bad, sad, horrible things that happen in this world? Is it really God speaking to us or trying to get our attention? I think that sometimes we think that the bad around us must be God's plan since maybe he didn't stop it, or prevent it. He didn't intervene...why?
What is it exactly that God is trying to get across when He makes bad things happen to us? There is something wrong with that question - God doesn't make bad things happen to us. We may be mistaking evil for God's will. Or even our own free will and choices that we ourselves make...
I asked my friend if God disciplines us by causing terrible things to happen to us, like the way shepherds would break a sheep's leg in order to protect them and get them to listen to the Shepherd. This was her response, "No God doesn't do that. We live in a fallen world and those things happen. I think the Shepherd did that to put the sheep in time out, so to speak, so it can be still and heal. What's interesting is when a bone is broken it grows back even stronger."
Distinguishing correctly - not a simple thing to do. It's so easy to blame God for all that goes bad. But we do live a fallen world, where evil and our own free will reign.
Psalm 23:1-3
The Lord is my shepherd;
I have all that I need.
He lets me rest in green meadows;
he leads me beside peaceful streams.
He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
bringing honor to his name.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Redemption...
I love the word "redemption". Redemption is the act of redeeming. Redeeming is defined as the following:
a. to buy back
b. to free from what distresses
c. to change for the better
d. repair, restore
e. to atone for
A good friend once told me that God is in the business of "redeeming" :)
Redemption, have you ever felt God's redemption? I have. It's not just something that happens once, at least not for me. It happens every time I make a mistake, every time I make a bad decision or selfish decision. I can feel God redeeming me and saying, "it's ok, just try again".
God has bought me back from all my sins. He has freed me from my guilt. He has changed me for the better. He has repaired my broken ways and broken thoughts on how to live. He sent Jesus to atone for my sins, for all of our sins.
And with redemption comes freedom, freedom from the past, freedom from the world, freedom from guilt. Freedom to believe and know God is the Almighty, freedom to believe and know that God is the Redeemer, freedom to believe and know God will always redeem.
"O Israel, hope in the Lord; for with the Lord there is unfailing love. His redemption overflows. He himself will redeem Israel from every kind of sin." Psalm 130:7-8
a. to buy back
b. to free from what distresses
c. to change for the better
d. repair, restore
e. to atone for
A good friend once told me that God is in the business of "redeeming" :)
Redemption, have you ever felt God's redemption? I have. It's not just something that happens once, at least not for me. It happens every time I make a mistake, every time I make a bad decision or selfish decision. I can feel God redeeming me and saying, "it's ok, just try again".
God has bought me back from all my sins. He has freed me from my guilt. He has changed me for the better. He has repaired my broken ways and broken thoughts on how to live. He sent Jesus to atone for my sins, for all of our sins.
And with redemption comes freedom, freedom from the past, freedom from the world, freedom from guilt. Freedom to believe and know God is the Almighty, freedom to believe and know that God is the Redeemer, freedom to believe and know God will always redeem.
"O Israel, hope in the Lord; for with the Lord there is unfailing love. His redemption overflows. He himself will redeem Israel from every kind of sin." Psalm 130:7-8
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Nothing more...
There is nothing more incredible than God's people, in one place, worshipping Him. I have experienced this quite a few times and each time it is the greatest feeling.
Yours, LORD, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the majesty and the splendor, for everything in heaven and earth is yours. Yours, LORD, is the kingdom; you are exalted as head over all.
1 Chronicles 29:11
Yours, LORD, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the majesty and the splendor, for everything in heaven and earth is yours. Yours, LORD, is the kingdom; you are exalted as head over all.
1 Chronicles 29:11
Friday, May 27, 2011
Insecurity...
When thinking of my passion, I often find myself a little insecure to talk about it. What if I don't say the right thing, what if I sound crazy, what if I sound righteous, what if I offend someone, what if, what if, what if...
I think that's why I like keeping this blog to write about my relationship with God. My passion is God. I may not always say or do the right things, but my passion is my passion. I never really shared my blog with lots of people. A part of me just wanted random people to stumble upon it. After I found out I was pregnant, I decided that I would share my blog on Facebook as a way to share the news, but more importantly to share some of my posts and maybe encourage a person to start seeking God for someone who doesn't really know Him.
A friend of mine asked me the next day after I shared my blog on FB, why I posted my diary for everyone to see. The question was in passing and I didn't say what was truly in my heart. I shared it so that maybe one single person could begin seeking God and find Him too. I don't know if that will happen, but that is my hope.
Another friend just earlier this week asked me what my passion was (we were talking about jobs), instantly, I said "not tax" (my job, by the way I like it but could definitely live without it). What I really wanted to say was possibly being a missionary, doing some type of mission work. I'm not good at talking about my passion...this is my insecurity.
Here is what I will meditate on and maybe one day I won't feel so insecure.
"...don’t worry about how to respond or what to say. God will give you the right words at the right time." Matthew 10:19
I think that's why I like keeping this blog to write about my relationship with God. My passion is God. I may not always say or do the right things, but my passion is my passion. I never really shared my blog with lots of people. A part of me just wanted random people to stumble upon it. After I found out I was pregnant, I decided that I would share my blog on Facebook as a way to share the news, but more importantly to share some of my posts and maybe encourage a person to start seeking God for someone who doesn't really know Him.
A friend of mine asked me the next day after I shared my blog on FB, why I posted my diary for everyone to see. The question was in passing and I didn't say what was truly in my heart. I shared it so that maybe one single person could begin seeking God and find Him too. I don't know if that will happen, but that is my hope.
Another friend just earlier this week asked me what my passion was (we were talking about jobs), instantly, I said "not tax" (my job, by the way I like it but could definitely live without it). What I really wanted to say was possibly being a missionary, doing some type of mission work. I'm not good at talking about my passion...this is my insecurity.
Here is what I will meditate on and maybe one day I won't feel so insecure.
"...don’t worry about how to respond or what to say. God will give you the right words at the right time." Matthew 10:19
Friday, May 20, 2011
May 17, 2011
Earlier this week, May 17th, Sam and I heard our baby's heart beat :) It was pretty amazing. And it's a pretty amazing feeling that a little person is actually growing inside me. How can people have babies and not believe in God? Who else could design us and design women to carry little babies within their bodies? It seems to me that there can be no other explanation besides God. What other explanation would it be that could cause our human bodies to create and carry life? There is none besides our great God.
"You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed." Psalm 139:13-16
"You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed." Psalm 139:13-16
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Imagine...
if we lived our lives like the apostle Paul.
"For I fully expect and hope that I will never be ashamed, but I will continue to be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past."
"Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ and become one with him."
"I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead. I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death, so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead!"
"...I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us."
"...for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength."
"For I fully expect and hope that I will never be ashamed, but I will continue to be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past."
"Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ and become one with him."
"I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead. I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death, so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead!"
"...I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us."
"...for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength."
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Answered Prayers
For 2011, I prayed for change, uncomfortableness, things to make me get out of my comfort zone, to be less selfish - to bring me closer to God. I've prayed for change in my marriage that we become a stronger couple and a great team. In just the last few weeks, prayers have been answered in the least expected way. 2011 will definitely be a year of change, uncomfortableness, learning true selflessness, and building a stronger marriage.
All too often God works in ways that we least expect.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
All too often God works in ways that we least expect.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
Sunday, April 17, 2011
What if...
What if we spent more than just 1 hour a week at church worshipping God? I am aware that church is not the only form of worshipping, but still.
What if we didn't get so upset that schools don't talk about God? What if we made up for that during home time and weekends?
What if we embraced change?
What if we focused our thoughts on heaven instead of earth?
What if we took up our cross and gave up everything to follow Christ?
What if we didn't get so upset that schools don't talk about God? What if we made up for that during home time and weekends?
What if we embraced change?
What if we focused our thoughts on heaven instead of earth?
What if we took up our cross and gave up everything to follow Christ?
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Malachi 3:10
Tithing. It took me a long time to be able to tithe. First to want to do it, then to have the money to actually do it. But I finally got there not too long ago.
It had been on my heart for awhile about not just giving, but to some degree giving more than is just comfortable.
Just a few weeks ago, I added a little more to increase my tithe; that's me trying to get out of my comfort zone. Not really in the financial mode to do it, but it was something I really wanted to do. I didn't bother looking at my budget, and just did it.
Just this last week, I found out that I will be receiving a bonus at work; it's called an above and beyond bonus. I'll be getting this at just the right time; all in God's timing.
"Bring all the tithes into the storehouse so there will be enough food in my Temple. If you do", says the Lord of Heaven's Armies, "I will open the windows of heaven for you. I will pour out a blessing so great you won't have enough room to take it in! Try it! Put me to the test!" Malachi 3:10
It had been on my heart for awhile about not just giving, but to some degree giving more than is just comfortable.
Just a few weeks ago, I added a little more to increase my tithe; that's me trying to get out of my comfort zone. Not really in the financial mode to do it, but it was something I really wanted to do. I didn't bother looking at my budget, and just did it.
Just this last week, I found out that I will be receiving a bonus at work; it's called an above and beyond bonus. I'll be getting this at just the right time; all in God's timing.
"Bring all the tithes into the storehouse so there will be enough food in my Temple. If you do", says the Lord of Heaven's Armies, "I will open the windows of heaven for you. I will pour out a blessing so great you won't have enough room to take it in! Try it! Put me to the test!" Malachi 3:10
Sunday, March 20, 2011
7 random truths about me...
1. Being still, I have yet to practice.
2. I do not like working on home renovations...AT ALL.
3. Food can usually change my mood(for the better) rather quickly.
4. I like to have a presidente margarita with dinner when at Chilis.
5. I wonder alot what my nephew Zavier would be like now.
6. I often struggle with understanding God's will and our own free will.
7. The purpose of my life is to glorify God.
2. I do not like working on home renovations...AT ALL.
3. Food can usually change my mood(for the better) rather quickly.
4. I like to have a presidente margarita with dinner when at Chilis.
5. I wonder alot what my nephew Zavier would be like now.
6. I often struggle with understanding God's will and our own free will.
7. The purpose of my life is to glorify God.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Judging...Part II
Interestingly enough, the message at church this week (communityoffaith.tv), was about treating people right. One of the verses that we went over was 1 Samuel 16:7: People judge by outward and appearance but the Lord looks at the heart.
So often do we not only judge by outward appearance but by outward actions...if that makes any sense. It was a great message to hear this weekend about "judging" considering that I judge all too often...I actually wonder if I can go a day without judging.
Shortly after church I was talking to a friend who had also gone to the church service and heard the message about treating people right. I was telling her about my dad. Now, I don't have a regular daughter-father relationship with my dad, and started telling her a little bit about him. BUT just a couple of minutes into my conversation...I paused my story and said...wait, I am totally judging! Even after I just heard a message about it!
It comes so easily for me to judge him and his actions. Do I really know his heart? Probably not, I'm not sure it's even possible. Sometimes his actions and words make it hard to understand and see his heart.
Along with the judging, I am conflicted about forgiving...and how many times should I forgive. Then the answer comes so easily,
Matthew 18:21-22: Then Peter came to him and asked, “Lord, how often should I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times?” “No, not seven times,” Jesus replied, “but seventy times seven!"
So often do we not only judge by outward appearance but by outward actions...if that makes any sense. It was a great message to hear this weekend about "judging" considering that I judge all too often...I actually wonder if I can go a day without judging.
Shortly after church I was talking to a friend who had also gone to the church service and heard the message about treating people right. I was telling her about my dad. Now, I don't have a regular daughter-father relationship with my dad, and started telling her a little bit about him. BUT just a couple of minutes into my conversation...I paused my story and said...wait, I am totally judging! Even after I just heard a message about it!
It comes so easily for me to judge him and his actions. Do I really know his heart? Probably not, I'm not sure it's even possible. Sometimes his actions and words make it hard to understand and see his heart.
Along with the judging, I am conflicted about forgiving...and how many times should I forgive. Then the answer comes so easily,
Matthew 18:21-22: Then Peter came to him and asked, “Lord, how often should I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times?” “No, not seven times,” Jesus replied, “but seventy times seven!"
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Judging...
Judging. When we hear something about somebody, it's so easy to assess the situation and give our thoughts on what somebody should do, shouldn't do, what they should've done and what they shouldn't have done. It's funny that when it comes to ourselves, we are practically flawless. We would have handled "that" situation better; it's always easier when we are an outsider looking in.
I often find myself catching other people judging other people. Usually, I am quick to notice the judging and often chime in (in the other person's defense). Here is what I don't often do...catch myself judging others. When I'm judging others, well, it's ok.
Instead of showing mercy, understanding, or love to another, I am busy judging them. Why do we choose to judge instead of choose to love?
I often find myself catching other people judging other people. Usually, I am quick to notice the judging and often chime in (in the other person's defense). Here is what I don't often do...catch myself judging others. When I'm judging others, well, it's ok.
Instead of showing mercy, understanding, or love to another, I am busy judging them. Why do we choose to judge instead of choose to love?
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Small Beginnings...
I finally finished reading the Old Testament. I thought I'd never get to the end quite honestly. And contemplated skipping what I had left to read and go right into the New Testament. It did take me several months to get through and it was and still is quite challenging to read about some of God's ways in the Old Testament. Every time I read it, I tried to pick up something I could hold on to or something that applied to my every day life. Maybe I was too overwhelmed at times with the violence and destruction in the Old Testament that I didn't mark up too many verses...but here I was getting to the end of the Old Testament praying that I could find something, a verse that would help me.
Now, sometimes I am an anxious person...anxious to see results in whatever I am focused on. In my journey with God, often times, I am disappointed when I make bad decisions...decisions that are not aligned with God's Word. I guess I would say that I am my toughest critic. Sometimes I find myself questioning my spiritual maturity; maybe I am not doing things the right way, or getting to where I should be fast enough. Questioning why I still mess up, why sometimes I take one step forward and two steps back.
While reading Zechariah, I read the following, "...Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin..." Zechariah 4:10
It was then that I realized so even though God requires certain things from us, He understands that we are merely people and He actually rejoices even in all the small beginnings we have; small beginnings that lead us to Him.
Thank you God...for letting me know that small beginnings do count.
Now, sometimes I am an anxious person...anxious to see results in whatever I am focused on. In my journey with God, often times, I am disappointed when I make bad decisions...decisions that are not aligned with God's Word. I guess I would say that I am my toughest critic. Sometimes I find myself questioning my spiritual maturity; maybe I am not doing things the right way, or getting to where I should be fast enough. Questioning why I still mess up, why sometimes I take one step forward and two steps back.
While reading Zechariah, I read the following, "...Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin..." Zechariah 4:10
It was then that I realized so even though God requires certain things from us, He understands that we are merely people and He actually rejoices even in all the small beginnings we have; small beginnings that lead us to Him.
Thank you God...for letting me know that small beginnings do count.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
February 14, 2011
Valentine's 2011 will be one to remember. And it will set the standard for the rest of Valentines to come :). Sam surprised me with a nice little dinner in our new house. Now, the house is nowhere near ready and we are not yet living in it - so it was a surprise indeed.
He sure does know me well - we had a heart-shaped pizza for dinner :) He even brought in a table so we could eat there.
I am always in awe by the way God has worked things out for us. We are not perfect by any means and struggle in our marriage, but we are in a good place. A place that a few years ago I could not even imagine. I am in awe of how God changed our hearts - first by opening our hearts to Him and then each other.
"I will praise you, Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all the marvelous things You have done. I will be filled with joy because of You. I will sing praises to Your name, O Most High." Psalm 9:1-2
He sure does know me well - we had a heart-shaped pizza for dinner :) He even brought in a table so we could eat there.
I am always in awe by the way God has worked things out for us. We are not perfect by any means and struggle in our marriage, but we are in a good place. A place that a few years ago I could not even imagine. I am in awe of how God changed our hearts - first by opening our hearts to Him and then each other.
"I will praise you, Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all the marvelous things You have done. I will be filled with joy because of You. I will sing praises to Your name, O Most High." Psalm 9:1-2
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Chaos...
Friday...finally here, well almost. I've been thinking alot about change, specifically about being "uncomfortable" - embracing things that will make me uncomfortable...in a good way. To help me get out of my comfort zone...God sure did hear this loud and clear :)
This week was a crazy work week...in my mind all I could focus on was the chaos (the chaos of my own thoughts!). I had been volunteered to hold several presentations at work a while back. And this was the week of the presentations...man, was I ever so uncomfortable.
Now that the presentations are over, I've been reflecting on the work week and my reaction to the stress. I had thought that taking on my own "uncomfortable" challenge would be to do things that I normally wouldn't do, but do them anyway for God's glory. So after this chaotic week....I'm sitting here realizing that my "uncomfortableness" didn't leave me doing what I had expected - getting out my comfort zone by maybe being a bit more kinder and patient with people, helping a stranger, just basically loving my neighbors as myself. During the week, all I kept focusing on was "my" stress; not God's power, strength, and love for me to help me through this.
On Tuesday night, the day before my first presentation, right before I was just about to have a minor meltdown - my friend sends me a message- "You know who to give it up to...you will do great". Just exactly what I needed to hear - to remind me what was hard for me to focus on - relying and looking to God during these exact times. He sure did provide me with a great support team (my friends who kept on encouraging me!).
This week was a crazy work week...in my mind all I could focus on was the chaos (the chaos of my own thoughts!). I had been volunteered to hold several presentations at work a while back. And this was the week of the presentations...man, was I ever so uncomfortable.
Now that the presentations are over, I've been reflecting on the work week and my reaction to the stress. I had thought that taking on my own "uncomfortable" challenge would be to do things that I normally wouldn't do, but do them anyway for God's glory. So after this chaotic week....I'm sitting here realizing that my "uncomfortableness" didn't leave me doing what I had expected - getting out my comfort zone by maybe being a bit more kinder and patient with people, helping a stranger, just basically loving my neighbors as myself. During the week, all I kept focusing on was "my" stress; not God's power, strength, and love for me to help me through this.
On Tuesday night, the day before my first presentation, right before I was just about to have a minor meltdown - my friend sends me a message- "You know who to give it up to...you will do great". Just exactly what I needed to hear - to remind me what was hard for me to focus on - relying and looking to God during these exact times. He sure did provide me with a great support team (my friends who kept on encouraging me!).
This bout with uncomfortableness was not what I had in mind. But that's God for us - unpredictable in how He chooses to teach us something. Reminding me "do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says." (James 1:22)
"Those who know your name trust in You, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you." Psalm 9:10
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Learning...
I am learning...learning how to walk with God or more precisely, how to keep "walking" with God, learning how to strengthen my relationship with Him. I won't lie - often times it's a struggle. Sometimes, I feel like I am at a standstill with God - when I can't feel Him, when I don't hear Him. But even when I don't feel Him, I know He is here.
Despite the struggle, I know one thing...my life is all for Him. My purpose in life is to glorify God; granted, I don't always know how and mess up along the way.
I pray that 2011 and every year after this one is a year of change for me. A year to live all out for God, to glorify Him; no matter what the cost.
"...I still belong to You; You hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but You? I desire You more than anything on earth. My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever." Psalm 73:23-26
Despite the struggle, I know one thing...my life is all for Him. My purpose in life is to glorify God; granted, I don't always know how and mess up along the way.
I pray that 2011 and every year after this one is a year of change for me. A year to live all out for God, to glorify Him; no matter what the cost.
"...I still belong to You; You hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but You? I desire You more than anything on earth. My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever." Psalm 73:23-26
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